
By Jane Brady
J.S.
Bach believed that “Music washes away from the soul the
dust of everyday life.” Yet perhaps the most distinctive
musical quality of Julie de Azevedo, popular LDS recording
artist, is her ability to focus on the very dust
of everyday life – to examine how we apply religion not
in theory but in practice.
While
religious music in past centuries may have focused on the
heavenly, the spiritual – even the ethereal – Julie’s music
explores how to handle life when your baby’s crying, your
mom is sick, and you’re always running late.
She
says, “My music is about the intersection of faith and everyday
life. What does my faith in Christ – what does His
life – have to do with mine in 2005? [I want to learn] how
to better apply the atonement, how to better apply living
in the grace of God while in the midst of all the flaws
and dust.”
Her
seventh album, Home, epitomizes this “where the rubber hits the road” mentality. In
June 2004, while in the process of moving to a new home,
settling into her practice as a clinical social worker,
and savoring her new little boy (after an almost nine-year
gap between children) the “songwriting floodgates opened,”
and she wrote nearly all of the twelve songs in less than
a month. While in the midst of the messiness of life, she
“felt the grace of God more fully” than ever before.
One
of the most compelling songs on her new album, “Make Enough
of Me,” Julie describes as “perhaps the most vulnerable
and honest song. I needed to learn how to apply these lofty
spiritual ideals to the everyday realities of life.”
Overwhelmed
and underpaid
Morning comes too soon
Running late and on my plate
A million things to do
Got
a baby cryin’
Another trying to find the other shoe
When I open my eyes
The dam will break
Their need will fill my room
You
made wine from water
And raised up Jairus’ daughter
From her bed
From the dead
Filled the empty fishing nets
And with some loaves and fishes fed
A hungry crowd
I hunger now
Make enough of me to go around
Julie
likes this particular song because it “represents the process
of how this album came to be. I didn’t have time to do this.
I didn’t have time to write songs. I didn’t have time to
record them. But I was strengthened and supported in the
process and here we are. I don’t know how it happened. I
mean I do know how it happened. I got a lot of help.
Because there’s no way [I could have done this on my own].
If you had asked me a year ago, ‘Do you think you’ll have
another album with twelve new songs written and recorded
and you’d be doing interviews about them?’ I’d be like,
‘Yeah right!’”
Regardless
of the busy timing for the arrival of these latest songs,
Julie seems to have found peace in her life. “For the first
time in a long time I feel newness all the way around –
musically, personally, spiritually – at every level I am
at home.”
She
continues, “I’m just at this comfortable place, maybe because
my music is honest. If you listen to it you’ll hear that
I’m not claiming I have anything together. I’m not claiming
I have anything figured out. I’m on this journey and so
that’s the only way I can do music.”
Obviously
her honesty is striking a chord in listeners. An icon in
the world of religious music, she has received nine PEARL
awards from the Faith Centered Music Association, including
Songwriter of the Year in 1998 and Contemporary Album of
the Year in 2000. She also won Utah Best of State Female
Vocalist in 2003.
But
what’s more important to Julie than the flashy awards are
the people her music touches. Recently she received an e-mail
from a fan who is struggling with an eating disorder. Through
her portrayal of honest grappling with faith and hope in
her music, Julie was able to inspire this young woman to
keep trying to heal.
Julie
believes life is “not about perfect relationships, perfect
children, a perfect body, or a perfect song. It’s the process
of wrestling with the imperfections and still trying to
move forward toward Christ and finding joy.”
And
wrestle she does.
Recently
Julie searched the scriptures on the topic of perfect.
In her therapy work, with LDS people in particular, she has
found that perfectionism often leads to depression,
anxiety, stress, and poor self image. She has been searching
for deeper understanding and application of the teaching
“Be ye therefore perfect” (Matthew 5:48) because she thinks we misinterpret that teaching. As she
searched, she couldn’t
find anything that said “a perfect family” or “a perfect
life.” Instead she found “it’s about perfect brightness
of hope, perfect heart, being perfected in Christ. I think
in society we tend to be focused on the external: looking
perfect or appearing a certain way and that’s not what it’s
about. These songs help me to understand that on the next
level. It’s okay to be in the process of trying to deal
with the realities of life. That’s how we find true faith.”
A
recording artist since 1988, Julie is not defined solely
by her singing and songwriting abilities. While she describes
music as a big part of her life, it certainly isn’t the
only or even the biggest part. “Music has been around in
me a long time, before I met my husband, before I had my
kids. It’s big, but it doesn’t define who I am.” In fact,
in listing over twenty roles she plays (including partner,
friend, organizer and listener), only five had to do with
music. Certainly her rich life provides fodder for her songs.
And the fact that she would be musical whether or not she
had a recording contract is clear.
Music
is in her blood. As the daughter of famed LDS musician Lex
de Azevedo (composer of Saturday’s Warrior and My
Turn on Earth) she has had her share of comparisons
with him – and not just musical ones. They are both avid
sports enthusiasts and physically
active, and enjoy challenging themselves in that area. She
runs marathons, and he’s in triathlons. They also
love talking and spending time with their families.
Interestingly, Julie considers her grandmother, also a talented
singer, to be one of her greatest musical inspirations.
Thinking
I’d end our interview on a lighter note, I asked Julie if
she could have any super power in the world, what would
it be. After several moments of introspection she responded,
“Super power? I just want more compassion. To be able to
heal people’s pain.” With Home Julie goes a long
way toward doing just that.