The Peacegiver
The
Chains of Sin
Chapter
15
By
James L. Ferrell
An
excerpt from The Peacegiver, published by Deseret Book.
A
New Day
Rick
squinted as sunlight poured in through the window.
The
storm had passed, finally. Carol was already out of bed and
probably on her morning walk. He looked past where she normally
would have been to the clock on her nightstand. It was 7:50
a.m. He panicked for a moment until he remembered it was Saturday.
Shedding
the comforter, he rested under the sheet and gazed at the
ceiling.
Yesterday
felt like a long time ago. So much had happened overnight
that Rick was struggling to fit it all together. And did he
ever have a lot to fit together! He remembered his friend’s
advice about waking impressions and hopped out of bed to find
some paper. Having found some in his nightstand, he reclined
on the bed and started to sift through what he had seen.
The
stories of Abigail and Jonah swam in his mind. He could sense
that their messages were connected, but he struggled to piece
them together. He looked for the logic.
He
thought about mercy and justice, about feeling grateful or
entitled. He relived the scene on the road to Carmel and remembered Jonah on the boat and under the canopy
of sticks. Abigail was a type of Christ, he recalled. He remembered
his grandfather saying that her story illuminates the Lord’s
atonement from a different angle than we normally think about.
But what angle was that? He strained to remember. Oh yes,
that the Lord has paid in full for others’ sins, that was
the point—that it may be helpful to think more often about
how he has paid for others’ sins rather than just dwelling
on how he has paid for our own.
What
do we see in the atonement when we look at it from that angle?
Then he remembered how Abigail, in her role as peacemaker,
claimed Nabal’s sins and asked David to forgive her. How could
he ever withhold forgiveness from her? And that was just the
point, for he hadn’t.
Then
there was the point about how Abigail supplied David with
everything he needed, thereby atoning for another’s sins and
making David whole. Yes, that’s right, he assured himself.
That makes sense. But what about Jonah?
What does his story have to do with Abigail’s?
Rick
puzzled about that. And then he realized that, of course,
the Jonah and Abigail stories were each about extending mercy
and therefore intersected on that point. But how do they illuminate
different aspects of mercy? he wondered. Rick continued this way for a few minutes and
then tried to record his thinking in some logical way—in a
form he could understand and remember. He was genuinely excited,
some forty-five minutes later, when he looked at what he had
finally written:
The
Lord’s Atonement and Mercy
1.
We are each of us sinners, entitled to nothing but hell and
therefore utterly and equally dependent upon the mercies of
the Lord. (Jonah)
2.
I can receive of the Lord’s mercy—and the happiness, healing,
and peace that attend it—only to the extent I extend the same
to others. (Jonah)
3.
The Lord mercifully removes any justification for failing
to extend mercy to others. (Abigail)
a.
For the Lord has taken the sins of others upon his own head
and personally atoned for them. (Abigail)
b.
What possible justification could there be for demanding more
for others’ sins than the Lord has given? (Abigail)
4.
I can recover mercy by remembering (a) Abigail’s offering,
(b) the Lord’s question to Jonah, and (c) my own sins, the
memory of which brings me to the
Lord and invites me to rediscover his mercy and peace.
5.
If I repent of failing to extend mercy, the Lord will supply
me with everything I need and more—he will grant me his love,
his companionship, his understanding, his support. He will
make my burdens light. (Abigail)
Rick
read and reread what he had written. As he did so, he felt
a hope within him that he hadn’t felt in months, if not years.
Happiness was still a possibility, and it had more to do with
him than he had imagined.
He
could hear the TV downstairs. The kids must be up. He sprang
out of bed, pulled on some clothes, and folded the paper into
his pocket. It was time to rejoin his family.